#49 empty words

It has been hard to write lately. I am not sure why. I do know that I feel like a lack of audience or audience interaction does affect my motivation. When people engage or there are a lot of views, it makes me want to write more and it makes me want to connect. Also,…

#48 Grumpy

I woke up to dark cloud outside of my window. I really wanted to see the sun. I woke up with my legs and feet aching. I was in a bad mood. I am not sure why. Grouchy and grumpy like the Grinch. I spent most of the day being a bad mood. Then I…

#47 Checkpoints

Sobriety Checkpoints I just saw someone post online that on some L.A. street there is a check point and to be careful. She put an annoyed face emoji because apparently checkpoints upset her. She also said "urg their back again." So I am confused about why this annoyed her. But, she isn't the first to…

#46 Purpose

Purpose Let’s talk about purpose. I have had this empowering epiphany about life. I am not sure where this came from. It just happened. I have been writing on this blog how I had moments of extreme depression or sadness because my friend Tracy claims that I am not classified as a depressed person. But…

#45 Disco

Most would say that I am not a huge music person because I don't know the name of every artist or song. But, when I was around eight years old, my brother got me a Walkman. Remember those? I could only listen to the radio on it. Every night at 9pm, I would listen to…

#44 Skinny

I sent a selfie to a friend today who commented that I am looking thin. My heart raced. How I long to regain the confidence that thin frshta use to have. Skinny Frshta was a dare devil. Her outer beauty ignited her inner beauty leaving other in awe of her beautiful energy that showed off…

#43 Faith

Yesterday was an emotional day for me. I felt Allah with me throughout the day. My day consisted of highs and lows. God was with me throughout all of these moments. There were moments where I felt so incredibly weak. I kept praying to Allah to please help me. There was confirmation that Allah was…

#42 Dear God

Dear God, My name is Frshta but I know you already know this. God I know I have sinned. I know that I don’t pray five times a day or cover up like I should. But, God I ask for your forgiveness. I ask for you to bring my heart closer to you. Give me…