I am thankful for so much in my life but sometimes all I do is fucking complain and I really hate when I do that. I literally did that today for two hour and afterwards, I thought to myself ..what the fuck is the matter with you. People have it so much worse than me.
I complained about my family today..alot because they have been especially difficult lately and it has been hard to handle.
I complained about my lack of a future. I have a failed career as a filmmaker and I have no where to go. I don’t have a career.. I just have jobs.
I just kept going on and on. Given, it has been difficult the last couple of days.
Thanksgiving is always a hard time for me because my family is literally insane. They changed the plan ten times already and we will see what tomorrow will be.
Oh and I can’t stand my dad. I have been biting my tongue so hard. I have been trying my best not to get annoyed with him. I am trying my best to just keep my mouth shut.
Thanksgiving always turns out to be a shit show. Let see what this year has to offer.
But, you know what, I am thankful to those that are close to my heart. Thank you for putting up with me and accepting me for who I am. Thank you for being there even though I know it gets hard with my lifestyle.
I am thankful for my hands and my feet. I am thankful for my eyes and nose and ears. I am thankful for my hair and my finger nails. I am thankful for a healthy body. I am thankful for my soul.
I am thankful for my car. Everyday that I look at my car aka Angelica, I feel so happy and blessed.
I am thankful for my mom because there is no one like her in the world.
I am thank for Almonds.
I am thankful for my pets who bring so much joy.
I am thankful for nature because its beauty brings me joy.
I am thankful for this blog and everyone that takes the time to read it. It means alot to me.
I am thankful for my trainer because she motivates me to be the best version of myself.
I am thankful for God. Thank you for blessing me and thank you for having a relationship with me Lord.
In the Holy Quran it says, “Verily, with hardship there is ease.”
Today, I asked God if he hears me? What should I do God..this is what I pleaded for. God, I am stuck and I don’t have the strength anymore. God, please hear me. Give me a sign that you hear me. And I know God does. Patience.