#164 I miss you.

December 16, 2012 changed my life. It was the day I lost my big brother, Yama. Today is his death anniversary. In the past, I always expected to be extremely emotional on his death anniversary but honestly, you become emotional if you allow yourself. I think about him then I cry. It doesn't matter what…

#160 Inktober 2: Wisp

Inktober 2: Wisp A wisp of smoke curled up into the air. The smoke circled the luminous moon until it shined like a round pumpkin waiting to burst into flames. Slowly the wind wishes down toward the rickety branches. There, she stands. Her finger nails as long a needles. Sharp and long. If she scratches…

#157 To my city.

Wow, this blog felt really good to write. It has been a while…HI EVERYONE…I've thought about writing everyday but nothing has inspired me…and sometimes when I try to write…nothing comes out…I don't know if this piece even makes sense..but I have been having mixed feelings about my city and I just wanted to write about…

#156 scared

What happens to you when you are scared? For me, it depends on the type of scared. There are different version of scared in my head. Sometimes I loose the feeling to my arms and legs for a couple of second. Sometimes my body shakes slightly. Sometimes its hard to breathe. Sometimes I can't speak.…

#154 happy 28 birthday to me.

28 June 5, 1992 is my birthday. My 28th birthday lands on a Friday this year. What a memorable year this has been so far. Although it has been a tough 6 months, it has still had its blessings. I feel extremely blessed and grateful to have friends and family that want to celebrate. They…

#152 Is motivation a lie?

It has been a crazy couple of weeks. First off, Ramadan finished. Right after Ramadan, Muslims celebrate Eid, which is essentially our Christmas. Unfortunately, Eid was not the most festive. The last couple of days of Ramadan were extremely stressful and Eid was the same. I am not going to get into it because its…

#150 alone

There is something about empty streets in the middle of the night. Street lights shining in the dark as the street lights change from green, yellow and red. I can't help but enjoy the the quiet of the streets and the glowing of the street lights. It reminds me of the Notebook, when Ally and…

#148 life update

I can’t believe quarantine has last so long. Today, I listened to this song called Ghengis Khan in the car. The first time I heard this song was the first week of quarantine. My sister and I loved the music video and were trying to learn the dance moves. That feels like such a long…

#147 Yama (Finale) Part 22

Yama and I during Hasibs’s engagement. In the name of God, the most merciful. Tonight, I will write the ending to the Yama series. I come to you all with a heart filled with love and compassion. It is the holy month of Ramadan and I am blessed to be able observe the month of…

#146 Yama Part 21

Yama and mom had a very special relationship. They were best friends and had this deep bond like no other. My mom will never understand why Yama had such a sad fate. Yama helped her with everything...like I mentioned before...even going to the gynecologist Yama consoled my mom about everything..even when he moved out...he stayed…